All Hallows: A Holy Remembrance

As I left church this past Sunday, one of the members of the congregation called to me in the parking lot. She was sitting in her car and had lowered the passenger window to talk to me. She’s a kindly woman in her 70’s who sits toward the front each Sunday. While she’s a quiet individual, she makes it a point to greet everyone she can after the service. It’s also important to her to introduce herself to visitors and welcome them. While I don’t know her well, she’s always seemed to me to be a warm and compassionate person.

I walked over to her car and leaned a bit to chat. She began the conversation, “I just wanted to ask you a question. What do you think of Halloween?” I wasn’t sure what she meant so I started with, “As a kid, I always looked forward to it. I have to admit, I still do like candy corn.” I continued, “But I think there’s something more that you’re asking.”

With a serious look on her face, she responded. “You know I’m alone now. At my age, most of my friends have passed, too. I was thinking about how in other cultures people celebrate Halloween remembering the dead. I guess in Mexico and some other countries, they decorate graves and have parades. I’m not sure if I understand all that but I do miss those who have passed.”

As she spoke, I recalled the years I lived in Tucson, Arizona. Día de Los Muertos. the Day of the Dead, was marked with a night-time parade. People of Latin heritage took food to graves and had something of a picnic at the grave sites of family members. Others, whose ancestors were buried elsewhere, sometimes made shrines at home. In these customs, I gained a better understanding not just of Mexican culture but also of the Celtic and pagan understanding of the thinness of Halloween when the spirits of loved ones were somehow more present to us. Yes, I had to agree with the woman from my church: I too miss those who have passed.

In my church, as in many other Christian communities, loved ones will be remembered over this weekend as part of the observance of All Saints and All Souls days (November 1 and 2, respectively). In the congregation where I belong, photos of loved ones will be arranged in a slide show that will be viewed during the service. Those present will have the opportunity to light candles in remembrance of those who have died. It is a way to remember loved ones for a few moments as part of our Sunday gathering. Even though our Sunday ritual has been carefully planned, it’s really just a token event when compared with the traditional Mexican observance of Dia de Los Meurtos. There’s leisure to the uniquely Latin observance of remembrance that we miss by limiting our memorial to four or five minutes in a Sunday service. We miss the sharing of food, laughter, and stories. In such remembrances, there’s a sense of the loved one’s presence with us again. In a way, our loved ones come to life by re-telling stories and eating favorite foods we once shared with them.

While family members and close friends who have passed from this life are often on my mind, this week as I work with graduate students in psychology and seminarians preparing for ministry, I have remembered some of the mentors who were a formative influence for me. They helped me to become the professor, researcher, and pastor I am today. Something of them lives on in me, just as something of my parents and close friends continues to live on in my life. I am grateful for the ways in which they have been part of my life. But I am also grateful that the time of All Hallows Eve followed by All Saints and All Souls days draws me to reflect on the threads of their lives woven into my own.

Of course, I look forward to the children’s fun on Halloween night with trick or treating and playing in the neighborhood. That was some of the best stuff of my own childhood. I hope that other children can enjoy this custom for generations to come. But I also hope that they learn some of the beauty of the roots of Halloween that goes much deeper than super hero costumes and fake spider webs on hedges. I’ve come to a point in my life when having a time to remember those who have been part of my life, who have shaped my life, and who have passed from my life has become very significant. This remembrance of those who have gone before us marks the essence of the holiday we know of as Halloween.

© 2014, emerging by Lou Kavar, Ph.D.. All rights reserved.

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Clumping: How Much Can One Person Bear?

I met her at her home a few evenings ago. As we visited, she spoke about him frequently. She also referred to things around the house that she has now been doing – things he used to do – which she hadn’t done for years: yard work, home repairs, and other odd jobs around the house. After about an hour, we went to a restaurant for dinner. It was clear the stopping in at her home meant a great deal.

It was ten months ago that her live-in “boyfriend” of 18 years died. She’s 53. He was 47. Two years after a diagnosis of cancer, followed by surgery which left him in constant pain, he passed quietly, comforted by high doses of medication.

Over those same two years, her mother was in a serious automobile accident caused by a youthful driver who ran a stop sign while talking on a cell phone. After months of rehab, her mother regained the ability to walk but has a permanent disability.

The restaurant where we ate is managed by one of her long-time friends. She found out some months ago that he was diagnosed with cancer. He visited with us at our table. When she asked him how he was, he quietly said, “Not good.” She asked what the doctor’s said. He replied, “They’ve told me to tell my children that it won’t be long.” She made plans to meet him for lunch later in the week. When we left the restaurant, she held onto his arm for more than a few moments.

Sometimes, the events of life are difficult and overwhelming. It can seem like all at once tragedy strikes and then repeats itself. It’s not just that there is one misfortune. Instead, it’s one after another. We wonder, “How much can one person bear?”

When I went through a period during which it seems liked anything could go wrong did go wrong, I spoke with a long-time friend in another part of the country about various hardships. She reflected that sometimes it just “clumps together.” She called it, “clumping” – having all the tough stuff clumped together at once. Clumping. I like that term. A clump is something difficult to break up. A clump is something one could trip over. A clump doesn’t seem to have a purpose but just gets in the way.

As I think of people I’ve spoken with over the last year, it seems that many people have been experiencing this clumping of tough stuff because of long term unemployment, loss of homes, the loss of loved ones, and separation from loved ones because of military deployment or for the need to work in another region. The reality of these situations can’t be changed or wished away. But how we face them and get through them is within our control.

Over dinner with my friend the other evening, I was struck by the way in which she focused on the things she could do for herself and the positive aspects of her life. Keeping a focus on the positive aspects of life helped to prevent her from getting lost in the pain of loss which entered her life. That’s one way she has been able to face the tragedies she’s experienced.

One way I often get through difficult times is to create a sense of inner stability by maintaining an outward routine. My strategy for when the tough times clump together and weigh me down is to stick to a clear routine of prayer and meditation, exercise, and eating well. I may not follow the routine perfectly, but I strive to do my best in the situation to keep myself balanced. By doing these things, I’m better able to move through life’s challenges without feeling overwhelmed.

Each of us experiences challenging times in life when difficult, tragic events clump up and threaten to bury us. After spending an evening with my friend, it was clear that she wouldn’t be buried by the pain of repeated losses. She recognized the pain and felt it. But she also recognized the unique gift of life she has received. By keeping a focus on the good as well as the painful in her life, she has been able to continue to find balance in her life even when the clumps get in her way.

While it’s tempting to think of my friend’s situation and ask, “How much can one person bear?” perhaps it’s better to learn from her ability to accept both the good and the tragic aspects of life as all being part of the fabric of life.

© 2014, emerging by Lou Kavar, Ph.D.. All rights reserved.

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Autumn Reflections from the Porch Swing

It was a lovely autumn day. I sat on the front porch swing and watched as squirrels continued their collection of items to store for winter. Birds from farther North arrived in the South, nesting in shrubs and on trees, or resting on the telephone wires overhead. Occasionally, a breeze stirred up the fallen leaves, which danced across the yard. In the midst of the tranquility of the autumn afternoon, I was also mindful of different mental images which seemed incongruous in my placid setting. There were many terrible news headlines I was following: continued trouble in the Ukraine, innocent people slaughtered by the Islamic State, youth shot down in the streets of the US, and so much terror and violence around the world. The harsh realities of life seem so distant from my idyllic afternoon sitting on the porch swing yet I knew they marked the day to day reality of people in other places.

As my reflections shifted from the tranquility of the moment and the violence in the world, a question emerged. It was not a well formed question, but a series of inquisitive thoughts that were interconnected and jumbled together in my mind. What is the purpose of life? Is there a purpose in life? How is it that we are to live? In the midst of violence and chaos, what sense do we make of life? What is it that we are missing? How do we escape the cycles of violence which mar human existence?

My mind drifted to other places I’ve lived and how much I’ve enjoyed just sitting outside. In Atlanta, it’s the porch swing. I smiled as I remembered the porch swing at my childhood home in Pennsylvania. In Miami Beach, it was a balcony overlooking the water of Biscayne Bay. In Tucson, there was front porch bench looking onto a desert landscape. I’m very fond of sitting outside, being quiet, and reflecting on life – just from my own front porch.

From each place I sat, I could see trees. There were pine trees, willows, cacti, mangroves, palm trees, maples, cherry trees, and so many others. What does it mean to be a tree? There are so many varieties and different types of trees. How could “treeness” be limited to just one variety?

A sparrow perches itself on the porch railing near where I sit. Today there are cardinals and blue jays in the yard. I think of the birds I’ve watched from my various porches: the robins, crows, buzzards, hawks, egrets, and pelicans. How is it that nature has given us so many different kinds of birds? They are so different, one from another. What would it be like if all the birds were exactly alike?

My mind wanders even further. In our galaxy, it’s estimated that there are between 200 billion and 400 billion stars. The number of galaxies in the universe, yes, those are also numbered in the hundreds of billions. As mind-blowing as those numbers truly are, I can’t begin to fathom the theoretical possibility that even with all those stars and galaxies, there could also exist other universes somewhere out there in dimensions I cannot comprehend.. Even the stars and galaxies are very diverse, one from another.

As I sit on the porch swing, I am struck once again at how incredibly diverse our environment, our world, our solar system, our universe actually is. The constant theme that runs through everything that exists is diversity. That’s even true within our bodies, composed of many organs, systems, cells, and billions and billions of microorganisms growing inside.

For whatever reason, humanity has succeeded in disconnecting itself from living in appreciation of this fundamental diversity of the universe. Diversity is the way things were meant to be. Yet, we try to make everything the same: one true religion, one correct political system, one “best” economic system, one superior race of people, and one way of doing, saying, dressing, or behaving. From large systems to particular behaviors, humans have the tendency to try to limit diversity and have one right way.

As part of the Judeo-Christian tradition, I find myself quite uncomfortable with this human tendency to claim that one way or one thing is the right one making other others somehow less valuable or even defective. I believe that all creation is a reflection of the Divine. God created the cosmos as an expression of self. All aspects of the cosmos fundamentally are good. That means that when we fail to live with reference for the diverse ways creation presents itself to us, we fail to reference the goodness of God expressed in creation. Perhaps more importantly, there is something about the essence of Divinity that could only be expressed through incomprehensible diversity.

In this context, it’s deeply ironic that religion is used to justify war and the taking of human life. While all the great religious traditions of human history contain some form of the Golden Rule, to do unto others as you would have them do to you, out of greed and lust for power, people throughout history have used religion to justify the malicious intent they unleash on others. In doing so, they not only violate the religion they espouse but ignore the deep and obvious reality of the natural order of things: the fundamental principle of diversity in the cosmos.

In sitting on my porch swing, a small insight becomes quite clear to me as very important. The sparrow doesn’t act as though it’s better than the starling. Both the squirrels and the chipmunks know their role in gathering for the winter. In the diversity found in my own yard, there is a kind of harmony and order. That is the way we humans are to live: in harmony with the order established in creation, a harmony of orchestrated diversity where the many parts are woven together to form the great symphony of life. If we could only learn the lessons life presents us by just taking a moment to sit and rest in our own yards.

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