The year was 1971. We sat in a classroom with desks in straight rows. The high school guidance counselor walked in as a hush fell upon the room. After dumping books and papers on the desk, he went to the chalk board and wrote, “Know Thyself.”
The “guidance” class required during freshman year at my high school was meant to help us make the transition to the high school experience and adolescence. The format was discussion oriented based on a theme introduced by the guidance counselor. On that day, we began with Aristotle’s great words of wisdom, “Know Thyself.”
Over time, I learned that these words have been echoed in various ways throughout history. For all his religious stoicism, John Calvin understood that the more one grows in the knowledge of self, the more one grows in the knowledge of God. Over the last couple of years, I’ve been drawing on the writings of Teresa of Avila for spiritual sustenance. I have spent considerable time on her words, “The path to self knowledge must never be abandoned.”
In June, I began a process that unexpectedly has taken me further along the path to self knowledge. Now in my mid-fifties, I’m seriously overdue for some lifestyle changes. I’ve lived a very sedentary life. While I’ve made monthly “donations” for fitness centers and health clubs for the last twenty-five years, I’ve never been fond of exercise and have preferred a steady routine of visualized aerobics. Because of increased pain from arthritis in multiple joints, my habits needed to change. The result is that for the last three months, I’ve developed a routine of exercise for approximately 45 to 60 minutes five or six days each week. Much like my pattern for prayer, exercise seems to work best for me by having two periods each day, morning and evening. The result is that I feel better have surprisingly learned more about myself. The new self-knowledge has come in three identifiable dimensions of my life: physical, psychological, and spiritual.
Physically, yes: I feel better. Not only do I go up and down steps with ease, but sometimes I take them two at a time. I sleep better and am more alert. While I’ve lost very little weight, which is the plight of most folks my age, I’m definitely more agile and comfortable in my body.
On a psychological dimension, I’ve come to understand my stress patterns more clearly. I quickly identify the stress in my body and am aware of when I stress myself. In addition, my mood is more positive and I’m more able to shake off things that normally get me down. I find myself humming and singing much more than I used to and experience greater happiness. This comes as quite a surprise because, in fact, this year has been particularly difficult.
The most surprising discovery to me is the impact which regular exercise is having on the spiritual dimension of life. I find myself living more mindfully, with greater focus on the present moment, and an increased sense of inner peace. Time in prayer and meditation is also more focused and, for lack of a better term, deeper
When I intentionally began a pattern of regular exercise, I assumed that it would need to be a disciplined activity each day. I thought I had enough self-discipline force myself to make it work. What I found was that the experience has been a kind of life-transformation. I experience myself differently in each dimension of who I am. It’s been a great adventure that I didn’t expect to be on.
This experience underscores for me how each dimension of who we are is fundamentally related. As I focus on the physical dimension, I also explore the psychological and spiritual component of who I am. No matter the starting place, it leads me along the ongoing journey on the path of self-knowledge. What the high school guidance counselor didn’t tell us was that growth in self-knowledge continues throughout life.
(Originally posted on e-merging on October 27, 2010)
Thank you, Lou. I can certainly appreciate and second your experience with exercise. I used to overdo it (now there’s a theme!), but as I’ve gotten older, moderation appears to have set in. I find, much like you, that regular exercise directly affects, positively, my meditation life and my overall attitude and mood. Compassion comes easier (though never easily), and patience. When I go a few days or a couple of weeks without exercise, it’s noticeable. I agree with you that this is something we tend to overlook when guiding ourselves or others, whether in spiritual practice or in psychotherapy (with which I’m more familiar). It’s got to be a staple. Kudos to you for reminding us!
Bill